my changes in the last year

I’ve dealt with a lot of changes in the last year. To start it off last April I ended the almost five year relationship with my boyfriend. It was hard to deal with for a both a month. I had to deal with my ex crying almost everyday or if he wasn’t crying he was making me feel like a piece of shit. It was hard then I thought I was over him and tried to move on but I kept comparing every guy next to him. I played with a great guy's emotions because of this. I’ve also had the hardship of going back to school after dropping out. I ended up getting depressed and dropping out fall semester because many things. One of the main things was my first job and my grandma’s business burned down. It was a ruff time for a few months. I spent most of December in my bed blaming all my problems on myself when I knew that wasn’t true or right. I’m still trying to deal with the break up of my boyfriend of four years. We have a better relationship than we had before. I have a problem though I always think he’s going to be there for me. He will when he can but he is trying to move on too and he just can’t drop whatever he’s doing to come help me. Now after a wild and long year I’m at the begging of a new one. This year I’m focusing on my school work and trying to find a job. Maybe I’ll think about a relationship towards the end of the semester but not now.